i just wanna say: thank you, running man!

Running Man adalah sebuah program variety show Korea Selatan yang memiliki 8 Member yakni Yoo Jae Seok, Lee Kwang Soo, Jee Seok Jin, Kim Jong Kook, Jeon So Min, Haha, Song Ji Hyo, dan Yang Se Chan. Program ini tayang setiap hari minggu jam 18.00 di saluran televisi KBS.

1. How Did I Know Them?

Dulu, waktu kelas 5 SD, di sekolahku lagi jaman jamannya KPop (sekarang juga masih jamannya sih). Nah, mulailah aku kenal dengan sebuah boygrup asal YG yaitu adalahhh iKON.

Percaya ga percaya, dulu aku bucinnnn banget sama mereka. Kenapa sih suka iKON? Lagu mereka bagus bagus plis. Coba deh kalian dengerin lagu mereka yang Apology sama Flower. Aku gajamin kalian bakal suka, tapi mereka tipe aku banget deh. Selain lagu mereka yang bagus bagus, mereka juga beneran BISA NYANYI. Dulu sebenernya aku juga suka sama BTS, tapi skill nyanyi mereka kalo aku jujur emang lebih bagus iKON.

Lanjut…

Nah ceritanya aku suka iKON kan? Maka dari itu, aku nontonin semua acara, relaity show, sama variety show yang dibintangi mereka.

Nah, jadilah aku mencari tau dan ketemulah aku dengan Running Man:)

2. Love at First Sight

Nah waktu aku nonton episode yang dibintangi oleh iKON itu, mereka main teka teki dan permainan pasangan.

Selesai nonton aku sadar satu hal. Lucu bangetttt mereka tuh. Walaupun waktu itu aku agak kecewa karena iKON ga jadi peran utama, tapi membernya kompak banget yang emang serasa semua ngelindungin satu sama lain:”

Setelah nonton 2 episode yang ada iKONnya, aku langsung nyari dong episode lainnya dan seterusnya sampe sekarang jadi ngikutin terus perjuangan mereka.

3. Non-blood Relationships Are Real

Ada satu episode running man yang bener bener jadi favoritku yaitu episode 267. (Spoiler alert) Jadi di episode itu di game terakhir para member harus nebak isi pikiran satu sama lain. Jadi Yoo Jae Suk harus lompat sesuai dengan angka yang dipikirkan member lainnya. Dan tau gak? Mereka berhasillll!!!

Dan waktu mereka berhasil aku nangis banget dong :,-) Mereka celebrating kemenangan mereka sambil pelukan tanpa sadar. Itu momen di running man yang bener bener aku inget sampe sekarang.

Dan setelah nonton itu aku jadi sadar. Ikatan manusia itu emang bisa sekuat baja kalo emang udah tau satu sama lain dan bareng bareng untuk waktu yang lama.

Yang awalnya awakward dan gatau mau ngobrol apa atau mungkin musuhan, kalo disatukan untuk waktu yang lama aku yakin akhirnya bakal kaya dora sama monyetnya, iya, kompak banget!

Kayanya segitu dulu dari aku, kalian bener bener harus coba nonton running man.

Kalo mau nonton pertama kali dan gamau kecewa, nih aku kasih list episode terfavorit.

Episode 132, Episode 51-52, Episode 267, Episode 300, Episode 277

sekian dari aku, ketemu lagi ya🌟🌟

the problem is me

Did you ever feel like yourself is not you anymore? or all the words that leave your tongue feel like they came from someone else?

Because I did.

Not to be dramatic but, this is so confused me.

I wonder: WHEN? When did i became this bad, unhappy, hopeless, lonely, and feel empty.

Then i found the answer.

MIDDLE SCHOOL.

Even if i try very very very hard, i still cant remember a single happy moment there.

All i can remember is i had so many failures, judgemental environment that freaking me out, gossips, fake friends, circles that didnt accept me, and the pressure of expectation.

Those are what make me a different person. My perspective changed from positive to really negative. Toxic friendship that left me out. It scares me a lot, you know? And the hardest thing is, I couldnt do anything. I just sit and get caught in the constant motion of time.

Then corona exists…

And things just got better! I became closer with my family. And i feel like the old me is just back. I start to see myself again after long time. Just to be honest, iam so very really grateful of this pandemic. I know, i know. Im so selfish. I just care with myself. Im so sorry, but thats the truth.

I just think what if this pandemic doesnt exist. Will i get more worst? Or maybe i will definetly be so fine?

But then, one day i looked up back to my past. Looking the reasons why all this time i feel unhappy, sad, depressed, hopeless, and empty. Yeah thats right! The answer is not because of MIDDLE SCHOOL, or TEACHERS, or RIDICULOUS SUBJECTS. But because i always avoiding problems and never face it with my own way.

When i have a problem i always ask help to someone. Not because i want ‘we’ to face it together, but because i want he/she to be my shield. If that way doesnt work, i always avoiding it. And whats the cause? I became a coward. A jerk. A fool that always scared of the future.

The problem is not MIDDLE SCHOOL, BUT ITS ME!

One massage from this post is, if you have problems, please dont avoid them or even worst give up on them. Just face it with confidence then shake it off with your sharp word that you have been honing all this time.

Thank you.

A Story of My Life Ep. 01